for prodigals only

I am 45 years old. Married to the most beautiful woman in the world with 3 wonderful sons. I have used drugs since I was 13. Hard drugs since I was 17. I have been in and out of rehab several times, with my longest clean time being 4 1/2 years. It was the best 4 years of my life. I so want God back in my life. I hate my life and myself right now, but I just can't seem to get past the initial hump of getting clean. Pease pray for me.

I haven't ever been close to the Lord. I know He's there. I do pray and have faith that He does exist. It's just that….I have been having problems with addictions. I've been going to AA and praying regularly, but I feel like I need more…

I am a crack addict and have been in and out of jail since 1984. I just can't seem to stay with Jesus. It's funny how I can get on my knees to look for a crumb of crack, but I can’t get on my knees to pray… somehow I keep missing the mark.

The other night I was changing channels on the TV when I just happened to see you. You spoke a word that hit home with me. That night I came to this web site and was almost finished with this form and my computer crashed. I got mad and said 'forget this.' Last night I went to the strip club and I could not enjoy myself because of the word that was inside of me. I know God's love. He set me free from the things I have gone back to. A few years back I told my Pastor that I wished I had never gotten saved because I walked away from the church and God. I have had fun over the years, but I am a walking dead man. I am ready to come home.

I was raised a Christian but now I am a Muslim. I'm an alcoholic and just recently got out of prison.