for prodigals only

I graduated Teen Challenge on Nov 15, 2009. I was a 28 year old woman who had lived a life of addiction for over 10 years. My life has been forever changed by the healing power of Jesus! I have been sober for over two years, remarried and I have a 4 month old baby. I am a Prodigal!!

I STARTED USING AND DRINKING AT 13. AT 38 I WAS RADICALLY BORN AGAIN...BUT AS THE WORD SAYS " THERE WILL COME TRIBULATIONS" AND BECAUSE I DIDN'T STAY ON MY KNEES AND IN THE WORD I BACKSLID. NOT ONCE OR TWICE OR THREE BUT 4 DIFFERENT TIMES. NOW I AM BACK IN HIS WILL. STILL FIGHTING DEMONS BUT NOW USING THE WORD OF GOD AND RELYING ON HIS STRENGTH.. YOU HAVE TO MAKE THE FIRST STEP THO AND GIVE IT ALL UP...THEN TRUST, RELY AND CLING TO HIM WITH ALL YOUR MIGHT.

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At a young age I was exposed to pornograhy. I beleive that it planted a seed in me. I did accept Christ when I was around eight but I was not rooted in the word. I went to sunday school I did youth group and after went to church. So I knew the love of God and I prayed and talked to him often when I was younger. As I grew older the curiosity of pornograhy took root and I began to indulge in my flesh. It got to the point where it was so bad I couldn't wait for the day to be over so at night I could turn on the channel that it would be on and fullfill that lust. The Guilt and conviction was so heavy but giving into the temptation was too easy, So I did everytime.I had enough of God in me to know what I was doing was wrong. I would ask for forgiveness but I never really truly cried out to him. Their was this part of me that knew God had a plan for me that I could be sharing the Gospel with others but I couldn't because I was stuck, I felt like God hated me and I hated myself. He used sermons to get trough to me. One called The Judgement Seat of Christ by Leonard Ravenhill. It was so powerful I cried through out this sermon for my sins for other peoples sins and sin in the world. For the first time I got a glimpse of what God has to deal with everyday. I cried out to God that day. I finally put myself up on the cross. I never had to worry about backsliding again. Oh bless you men of God!. I am now growing in my faith walk so that I may be used to be a light to others about truth! I love truth for the Truth will set you free!!

The illness of my children and a failed marriage made me feel like a failure. I thought that it was impossible to follow the Lord any longer. I got into immoral relationships trying to find 'true love.' One day when I was hurting from a break up with a man I loved the Lord Jesus spoke to me. He said I never left you - you left me. I am still here for you. I sought the one who truly loves me, Jesus Christ, and have stopped looking back. I now serve the Lord again and feel the peace that passes all understanding and true love!